My last thing i want to ask you is abt hurting my close associates.I have a pure heart and u know that!i can not hurt my close associates and you too know that!but there were times unknowingly becoz of me my close associates were hurt!and god u know that in my wildest dream i can not hurt them!
So i ask you
Why did u make this happen?
i am deeply sorry and i apologize to my close associates.
At the end i just want to say guys and girls do not cry!get on! u ve got %tage! u ve got brain!realize ur dreams!do not follow the rat race or do not follow the stream!god never gave me oppurtunity!u ve the oppurtunity!make most of it!god bless you! whenever u feel low always remember me!u will feel better!
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Being NANO.....PART 3
Being NANO another thing i want to discuss with you GOD! u will always have people talking abt crystal clear ideas abt their life and what they should become and u ve workshops on that too!u know i always had this crystal clear idea of being a PHD in astrophysics and enjoying research life in university.This idea was crystal clear since my school days.Perhaps becoz of this only thing i tried iitz like anything to get MSC physics so that my parents willingly send me to my life.But you had some gr8 creative ideas and u know my parents did not allow me to go to hislop to chase my dream.I would ve been really happy there than i am today.My next backup plan was computers.And that too u screwed.And i cud not change my branch.What i am today? Nor a gud comp scii guy?nor a gud tronix guy? i am nothing!so my second so called crystal clear idea was squashed by you!
My third crystal clear idea not to do GATE studies and give everything to the biped bot also failed.And u still ve those !#!#!#$$@ people who do not ve crystal clear ideas abt life and what they want to do and inspite of that they give gyan to others like anything!the most awesome thing was when i failed in EDC the last time!u know it was purely injustice on your part!
so i ask you the question
these big guys always talk abt having aim and abt crystal clear ideas of what to do in life and when i had why did not u help me?All i needed was only 1% help from you.
My third crystal clear idea not to do GATE studies and give everything to the biped bot also failed.And u still ve those !#!#!#$$@ people who do not ve crystal clear ideas abt life and what they want to do and inspite of that they give gyan to others like anything!the most awesome thing was when i failed in EDC the last time!u know it was purely injustice on your part!
so i ask you the question
these big guys always talk abt having aim and abt crystal clear ideas of what to do in life and when i had why did not u help me?All i needed was only 1% help from you.
Being NANO .... PART 2 continued
So being NANO i ask 3 questions to GOD
1.Where is this world going? the moral values which were taught to me by nani that you should help others and you should have a pure heart and you should never be matlabi are of no importance?
Frankly the industrial people taught me some gr8 lessons on political science in pratishruti 2008.And yes the CS people were also not behind!
2. What the hell did i do wrong to other people that u gave me pain and screwed my life?coz u too know that there r more harami guys and girls than me who ve never tasted pain!
3.When i will get my chance to make my parents happy and say to them see i have achieved this job in a company or whatever and now i want to leave for my research life and let me leave coz ur happy.rt now they r really frustrated of me and they r not willing to send me my way.
being NANO ... Part 2
Fate ? nasseb ? Destiny? i still do not know the rt definitions of all these terms!Many a times u hear people saying "Tum tumhara nasseb khud likhte ho" " we do not belive in desitny " " hum hamara nasseb khud likhte hai " i just ask you all to do one thing!for one day , just one day leave ur job leave ur %tage and Face music by coming at my place by standing at my place.Then u will know how lucky u ve been and u will get the real feel of the kindness god has showed on you. then u will realise the real worth of what you ve got! and to those !@#!$@$ who cry that we do not have job and yeh company mili mujhe and woh company chahiye thi and tech mahindra me kya job karna and all those nakhres just one day meri pt of view se life dekho and u will seee the worth of even 5000rs job and happiness of your parents!i am not jealous of anybody nor i was!if i was jealous then i could not have stopped for the whole tcs day.i stayed despite of disputes at home coz i wanted to enjoy my close associates akshay shripad gaurav puja ankit taori etc getting placed in tcs.i helped many people that day becozi had only 1 feeling in my heart Man god did not give me the opportunity of making my parents happy!these guys have!so let me also help them in that dream!i also stayed with gaurav tilll the end in jp morgan coz i wanted to see the ecstacy on his face and then i also enjoyed akshay and team winning contraption in VNIT and adhicary making mockery of !##$@$ sabloak and industrial winning the debate.Many moments were there and i enjoyed with pure heart!
But in SRKNEC u need to be harami than to have a pure heart!we have some gr8 ~!@#$#@$ species!and i mean it!whatever human relationships we shared a ramdaspeth students were completely in contrast to SRKNEC!i learnt the importance of two words selfishness and haramigiri!another important thing i did learn is how to do politics how to be page 3 and all kind of crap!hehehe!and the more nichla darja u talk u ra hero!hehehe!
Being NANO .... Part 1
i thought i would write this part at the end of my blog but then i gave it a rethink and i am writing it now only.I have been a looser throughout my last 6 years of life i have spent.it is not like before 6 years i was a superhero and all but before 2003 at least i had something to show.i did learn in 2003 that i lacked hard work and since then i have been doing hard work but to be frank when i was a fetiyal the results were slightly better than when i became hardworking.My close associates have lost trust and faith in me.The most hurting thing is my parents have lost faith and trust in my abilities.
what i have learnt is the only document that perhaps counts is ur MARKLIST and the most awesome thing is it does not matter how you get ur marks.It does not matter at all if you are honest or you cheat.The end result is the important result.i cheated only once in the sessionals of LEC paper.Nilay my best pal just brought the VBD and he literally scolded me u fool just copy and get marks as all are doing it.It was hell of an experience.Even if i had the liberty of copying all i just copied of abt 20 marks the questions which i was not getting!next thing is to hell with your knowledge.frankly speaking i ve some friends in dept of IT who had done their certification in JAVA SCJP what they call it!but besides only 1 guy nobody had the guts to write in their resume about it for the TCS interview.And the most awesome thing was they did not know the full form of SUN!and that 1 guy was not eligible for TCS!but the thing that mattered was they had plenty of marks on their marklists. i am not criticising anybody nor i am saying i am damn good at all these things nor i am saying they r fools.Perhaps these guys are more intelligent than me!but i sincerely request them to ask 1 question to their conscience! is this right? Our parents r perhaps spending 50,000 bucks per year on us.If we can not apply our knowledge then what is the use of getting marks?But perhaps i am wrong in asking such a question!becoz a guy who answered that it is on windows xp systems cobol is prominently run in industries (the obvious answer being mainframes systems) was placed in TCS and nikhil aggrawal who all know is awesomely talented geek got a gr8 gate score too was out of TCS!hehe!i mean what you make out of this?and above all he was told by TCS people that you r too gud at your C.
So Being NANO a damn looser in studies a guy who was always taught that cheating is bad thing and you should learn to apply your knowledge is being told u fool just cheat and do not apply ur brain stop ur thinking!ye aisa hai!ratta mar!jake likh de!
another incident i remember!we all were writing 5th sem microprocessor paper!and one guy was just sitting idle(not fully idle was trying to do something)!but then he said he wanted to go to toilet!he went to toilet!and after that he wrote the paper at an amazing speed!i do not know what he did in toilet!but it was gr8!hehehehehe!
what i have learnt is the only document that perhaps counts is ur MARKLIST and the most awesome thing is it does not matter how you get ur marks.It does not matter at all if you are honest or you cheat.The end result is the important result.i cheated only once in the sessionals of LEC paper.Nilay my best pal just brought the VBD and he literally scolded me u fool just copy and get marks as all are doing it.It was hell of an experience.Even if i had the liberty of copying all i just copied of abt 20 marks the questions which i was not getting!next thing is to hell with your knowledge.frankly speaking i ve some friends in dept of IT who had done their certification in JAVA SCJP what they call it!but besides only 1 guy nobody had the guts to write in their resume about it for the TCS interview.And the most awesome thing was they did not know the full form of SUN!and that 1 guy was not eligible for TCS!but the thing that mattered was they had plenty of marks on their marklists. i am not criticising anybody nor i am saying i am damn good at all these things nor i am saying they r fools.Perhaps these guys are more intelligent than me!but i sincerely request them to ask 1 question to their conscience! is this right? Our parents r perhaps spending 50,000 bucks per year on us.If we can not apply our knowledge then what is the use of getting marks?But perhaps i am wrong in asking such a question!becoz a guy who answered that it is on windows xp systems cobol is prominently run in industries (the obvious answer being mainframes systems) was placed in TCS and nikhil aggrawal who all know is awesomely talented geek got a gr8 gate score too was out of TCS!hehe!i mean what you make out of this?and above all he was told by TCS people that you r too gud at your C.
So Being NANO a damn looser in studies a guy who was always taught that cheating is bad thing and you should learn to apply your knowledge is being told u fool just cheat and do not apply ur brain stop ur thinking!ye aisa hai!ratta mar!jake likh de!
another incident i remember!we all were writing 5th sem microprocessor paper!and one guy was just sitting idle(not fully idle was trying to do something)!but then he said he wanted to go to toilet!he went to toilet!and after that he wrote the paper at an amazing speed!i do not know what he did in toilet!but it was gr8!hehehehehe!
Sunday, March 1, 2009
The First Battle! Me vs NU!Part 1:the vivas!
the game was on!a challenge was on!it was me vs nu and it was going to be the start of an extraordinary journey!i had only 1 fear at the back of my mind that i will get discontinued in my first year xams only!but this i thought wud come handy as a last ray of hope in convincing my family to change my field!but my friends were more confident than me to pass the xam!i had bets with all of them that i wud fail and they said even 2-3 hrs of studies r enough to pass NU!
i still do not know with confidence what to write in the NU papers and how guys and girls get gr8 %tages but at that time the golden no for me was 40!and it still remains the golden no for me!
first i had practicals to face!there were workshop , drawing , electrical, mechanics , physics ,chemistry practicals!so in total 6 vivas to face!the problem was i had my teeth and mouth wired by steel wires and steel screwes and small plates to hold it together!and the doctor said we will remove the support before my vivas by having a minor surgery!but i was against it!my fear was if it wud cause pain i wud not be able to utter a single word!kindly dr nisal acceded with us!and he said ok on the day of last viva we wud ve the surgical procedure!the other funny thing was the steel wires were loose on the ends so i cud feel some part hurting me as i talked!so the doc said we wud stick chewing gums to the end!so all the time 24*7 i used to ve chewing gums in my mouth so that i cud talk!sala jitte centre fresh zindagi me nahi khaye the utte usay samay me khane pade!i by this time had started gaining energy!and now cud walk inside house without much trouble!this was a gud sign!but still the diet was liquid diet!i cud not eat!
i do not remember what was the sequence of the vivas now but i do remember what happened with me!i guess the first was the workshop 1!i had 2 jobs incomplete!but pote sir was very kind and he said no probs!dad was with me and we entered the workshop!i was really tense!they told the external what had happened with me and all!he said fine no problem we will just take his viva and he has to write something on the sheet and we will pass him!madanker sir was the internal examiner!so it was decied that my dad wud sit besides me during my xam!and wow that was awesome!it was university xam practical and i had my dad rt besides me and it was he who did the drawing part on the answer sheet and i did the writting part!after that what happened i do not know but they abolished the idea of taking my viva and we came home!this gave me a tremendous confidence of facing the xam!but i was so exhausted that as soon as i came home i went to sleep!electrical was also gud!i remember there was a mam who helped us!and yes the grup in which i was to perform did everything for me!i am really sorry i do not remember the faces and names of that grup but i am really really thankfull to you!i just signed on the attendence sheet and rest of the work was done by them!thanx again guys!the viva lasted for a min as i was asked how my accident happened and all!physics was gr8 too!it strated on a horrible note as i got the transistor practical and i did not know how to do it!but dandeker mam came to my rescue she said do not worry we will change it!and thanx to 2 guys manish tiwari and aditya pandit we xchanged our practicals!manish shifted from the thermistor one to another and i got thermistor(the only pract i had prepaired) and pandit shifted to the transistor 1!the external came and asked me few questions and i answered them and last question she asked me was i present for internal practical ? actucally i was present for the physics practical but on that moment i said no mam i did not give my internal pract!damn!later i was damn tense about my answer!so physics was over!drawing was again a terrifying experience!i went in the classroom in the industrial dept!i was very very tense as i had studied nothing!and i guess just becoz of my dadz gr8 impression and mercy shown by the proffs i passed drawing!i did not do a single question rt in the asnwersheet which was provided!did something rough sketches of sort on the sheet and then came viva!viva as gud!i answered 2 questions rt which nobody cud answer and then we had a discussion with zole sir!and this was a frightning discussion!he asked me if i had written on the answersheet and then asked how was the viva and internals and all!and he said ho jana chahiye pass!wtf!ho jana chahiye pass?yar i said shit beta get ready for a practical back!but dad assured me and he said tambe sir's project viva of m tech was taken by him and as gole sir was his best friend nothing was going to happen and i wud pass!mechanics was the best!kulkarni sir was rocking!he said no need to perform practical!just take the journal and copy it into ur answerhseet!wow!wow!my feeling was like i want to dance!then in viva the first question he asked me how did ur accident happen?then i told the external everything and he said to apke calculation galat ho gaye!and we both had a laugh!and then he asked me mere ko ek bat bata tu rehta shankar nagar me bolta hai dost ke yahan gaya tha per mujhe pura shak hai tu girlfriend se milne gaya tha and tera jaghda ho gaya and usi ki tension me ye sab ho gaya!and i was like convincing him ki aisa kuch nahi hai sir!then he said just do not worry!u ve guts in you and u will pass!
i am changing my para to write about the chemistry pract!becoz there is a reason for that!this was the most hopeless dept!evenafter assuring my internals i still do not know they did it knowingly or unknowingly sent wrong internals to the university and i got a damn back in my practical!and in this practical i wrote like anything becoz i was scarred!and i gave a gud viva too!the external was awesome and he too teased me on the gf issue!but he then asked me pretty simple questions and i did answer them correctly!
and after all thos vivas on the last viva day i had my 1st minor surgery!dr nisal on that evening gave me local anestheshia and he removed the steel wires,small plates and screwes from my mouth!it was blood all over my mouth that evening!everytime i used to wash my mouth the colour of the water used to become red!it took the whole night for the bleeding to stop!it was painfull and i cud not talk properly!but i was happy as the doc said now u wud be able to chew and eat solid food!
i again thank all my friends who helped me thru my difficult phase!who backed me for this adventure of giving vivas!the first part was over!the next part was a much bigger challenge!
i still do not know with confidence what to write in the NU papers and how guys and girls get gr8 %tages but at that time the golden no for me was 40!and it still remains the golden no for me!
first i had practicals to face!there were workshop , drawing , electrical, mechanics , physics ,chemistry practicals!so in total 6 vivas to face!the problem was i had my teeth and mouth wired by steel wires and steel screwes and small plates to hold it together!and the doctor said we will remove the support before my vivas by having a minor surgery!but i was against it!my fear was if it wud cause pain i wud not be able to utter a single word!kindly dr nisal acceded with us!and he said ok on the day of last viva we wud ve the surgical procedure!the other funny thing was the steel wires were loose on the ends so i cud feel some part hurting me as i talked!so the doc said we wud stick chewing gums to the end!so all the time 24*7 i used to ve chewing gums in my mouth so that i cud talk!sala jitte centre fresh zindagi me nahi khaye the utte usay samay me khane pade!i by this time had started gaining energy!and now cud walk inside house without much trouble!this was a gud sign!but still the diet was liquid diet!i cud not eat!
i do not remember what was the sequence of the vivas now but i do remember what happened with me!i guess the first was the workshop 1!i had 2 jobs incomplete!but pote sir was very kind and he said no probs!dad was with me and we entered the workshop!i was really tense!they told the external what had happened with me and all!he said fine no problem we will just take his viva and he has to write something on the sheet and we will pass him!madanker sir was the internal examiner!so it was decied that my dad wud sit besides me during my xam!and wow that was awesome!it was university xam practical and i had my dad rt besides me and it was he who did the drawing part on the answer sheet and i did the writting part!after that what happened i do not know but they abolished the idea of taking my viva and we came home!this gave me a tremendous confidence of facing the xam!but i was so exhausted that as soon as i came home i went to sleep!electrical was also gud!i remember there was a mam who helped us!and yes the grup in which i was to perform did everything for me!i am really sorry i do not remember the faces and names of that grup but i am really really thankfull to you!i just signed on the attendence sheet and rest of the work was done by them!thanx again guys!the viva lasted for a min as i was asked how my accident happened and all!physics was gr8 too!it strated on a horrible note as i got the transistor practical and i did not know how to do it!but dandeker mam came to my rescue she said do not worry we will change it!and thanx to 2 guys manish tiwari and aditya pandit we xchanged our practicals!manish shifted from the thermistor one to another and i got thermistor(the only pract i had prepaired) and pandit shifted to the transistor 1!the external came and asked me few questions and i answered them and last question she asked me was i present for internal practical ? actucally i was present for the physics practical but on that moment i said no mam i did not give my internal pract!damn!later i was damn tense about my answer!so physics was over!drawing was again a terrifying experience!i went in the classroom in the industrial dept!i was very very tense as i had studied nothing!and i guess just becoz of my dadz gr8 impression and mercy shown by the proffs i passed drawing!i did not do a single question rt in the asnwersheet which was provided!did something rough sketches of sort on the sheet and then came viva!viva as gud!i answered 2 questions rt which nobody cud answer and then we had a discussion with zole sir!and this was a frightning discussion!he asked me if i had written on the answersheet and then asked how was the viva and internals and all!and he said ho jana chahiye pass!wtf!ho jana chahiye pass?yar i said shit beta get ready for a practical back!but dad assured me and he said tambe sir's project viva of m tech was taken by him and as gole sir was his best friend nothing was going to happen and i wud pass!mechanics was the best!kulkarni sir was rocking!he said no need to perform practical!just take the journal and copy it into ur answerhseet!wow!wow!my feeling was like i want to dance!then in viva the first question he asked me how did ur accident happen?then i told the external everything and he said to apke calculation galat ho gaye!and we both had a laugh!and then he asked me mere ko ek bat bata tu rehta shankar nagar me bolta hai dost ke yahan gaya tha per mujhe pura shak hai tu girlfriend se milne gaya tha and tera jaghda ho gaya and usi ki tension me ye sab ho gaya!and i was like convincing him ki aisa kuch nahi hai sir!then he said just do not worry!u ve guts in you and u will pass!
i am changing my para to write about the chemistry pract!becoz there is a reason for that!this was the most hopeless dept!evenafter assuring my internals i still do not know they did it knowingly or unknowingly sent wrong internals to the university and i got a damn back in my practical!and in this practical i wrote like anything becoz i was scarred!and i gave a gud viva too!the external was awesome and he too teased me on the gf issue!but he then asked me pretty simple questions and i did answer them correctly!
and after all thos vivas on the last viva day i had my 1st minor surgery!dr nisal on that evening gave me local anestheshia and he removed the steel wires,small plates and screwes from my mouth!it was blood all over my mouth that evening!everytime i used to wash my mouth the colour of the water used to become red!it took the whole night for the bleeding to stop!it was painfull and i cud not talk properly!but i was happy as the doc said now u wud be able to chew and eat solid food!
i again thank all my friends who helped me thru my difficult phase!who backed me for this adventure of giving vivas!the first part was over!the next part was a much bigger challenge!
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